Life In Fast Forward

Since the birth (okay really the conception) of our second child Aubrie, life has gotten so busy. It feels these days that life is in fast forward. I guess a good example of that would be the fact that I haven’t posted on this blog since July. Soooooo much has happened since then. I was hospitalized for pre -term contractions, placed on bed rest, went off of bed rest and had our daughter Aubrie Raelene Smith on 09-09-09 (cool birthday, huh!). Aubrie is now a little over two months so she is sleeping a six hour stretch most nights, and for that I am thankful! But even with that extra sleep I feel so tired these days and most of the time just feel like I run around crazily and get nothing done. I know I sound so melancholy but truthfully I wouldn’t give up all this craziness for anything. For several reasons really… not the least of is that I love and adore my children. But it is more than that, it is not just their laughter and smiles that keep me going (because trust me there are several days when those are not ample) but it is God’s sustaining grace. He is using my children to purge out my selfishness and make me more into his image. Everyday He uses life’s trials and chaotic messes to teach me patience, love, peace and perseverance. It is ironic because as I teach my children these things, God is using them to teach me. So praise be to God for his grace to continue on when things get hard and for granting me with two precious children. I certainly do not deserve God’s grace nor the two lives’s that he has entrusted to my care, but I am grateful that I, along with my husband get to shepherd them.